I’m not talking about when you’re having a fight with someone, and always want to be the one to get in the last word (not that I have that problem…).
No, I’m referring to typing the last word in a story. I finished my first draft last week, and I must say it was satisfying, but oddly unsettling.
Now comes the time for revisions, editing, and doubts. Is the story really good enough? Will anyone want to read it? Will it help anyone, make them stronger or better somehow, by reading it? Because that is the reason I want have it published. If there is a way I can write something that will help build up someone else’s testimony, or make them strive to be a stronger, more faithful member of the church, then I have succeeded at my goal.
That’s where the doubt comes in. Why would something I say make a difference in anyone’s life? Well, I have read books that made me want to be better, so I hope I too can accomplish what other writers have. I know they are out there.
For now, all I can do is keep trying. If nothing else were to ever happen with my manuscript, at least I have built up my own testimony as I have worked on it. I still have a lot to learn about becoming an author. And even more to learn about life. But who better to help me through the journey than my Heavenly Father. With His help, I just may have a chance.